Angst

Angst, often confused with anxiety, is a transcendent emotion in that it combines the unbearable anguish of life with the hopes of overcoming this seemingly impossible situation. Without the important element of hope, then the emotion is anxiety, not angst. from online Urban Dictionary

For some reason I go through stages of Angst which usually consist of some form of social withdrawl.  I wish to be alone, alone with my thoughts and feelings. Always I have managed to come to terms with these feelings, sometimes in a few moments, some times in weeks, months or even years.

For some reason, recently while driving home from work late at night, I was overcome with a feeling of dread, dooom or what I believe to be angst. Often I can hide these emotions by enclosing myself in retreat mode. If necessary I can usually hide them while in a social situation, I can put on a pretty good act.There are times this is not possible.

Today I am home, full of angst but thankfully I am alone and have no commitments. I spent some time in the kitchen baking a few batches of muffins, at least my house smells good and there is something comforting to eat.